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Hi buddy:

 

I don't really have much to say but, I really miss you. There is not one day that goes by that I don't have you in my mind. I come home at lunch from work and expect to see and hear you run down the steps and say "Scoob, I'm goin over to Pat's house, I'll be back later". I come home from work and your not there. That hurts the most I think. I will try to be strong for Mom and Kiesha. We miss you so damn much.

 

I love you....      8O{

 

Your stepdad,

Scoob

Zach, your mom is hurting so much. i  have never met her but i feel like ive known her all my life. she is the only person that knows  a lot of stuff that i dont tell anyone.   i dont know why  we were destined to meet but i am convinced that you and jeremy have something to do with it. i somehow know that you two are together and that brings some  comfort. you two are so alike.  so may things that your mom has shared are identical as what jeremy and i experienced. i dont know what to do to help your mom but i want to so bad. i dont think anyone but you canhelp her. she is desperatly trying to  find a sign or anythign little thing that will  let her know you are ok. that you are happy. i cant do that for her as much as i want to. only you can. or maybe you already have and she is in so much pain that she hasnt been able to see it or hear it. so please can you take care of that .  only i know the pain she is in right now because i hurt the same way. we want to be  where ever you two are to comfort you to take care of you to make sure youre alright and we cant and that is the most terrible thing a mother can go through. we feel helpless, desperate, i  cant explain it in words. i know that jeremy has sent some signs and  although not all of them lead me to beleive that he is ok, im gratefull for them. if he isnt ok,  can you please help him and i will ask him to take care of you too. God if only we could die right now so we could be with you two but even that isnt guaranteed is it?  but i will  promise  your mom that if i go  before she does that i will take care of you for her and that i will let her know we are all ok.

Dobbs was here again last weekend... I need to get him on here with all his memories because I'm sure he has some I don't even know about (and maybe shouldn't know about). Anyway, he reminded me of the time you were driving your car, the Lamborghini, up and down our road with him on the roof, car surfing. I think you were 15. I remember looking up and seeing you flying down the road and him barely clinging to it. I was so pissed ... I hopped in my car and chased you down to the boat docks and took your keys away. I know Briar and Jenna remember too since they looked like they were scared to death of me. I guess I was pretty mad thinking Dobbs was gonna fall off and get killed. Just the silly but stupid things we do when we're young. It definately wasn't funny then but kinda brings a smile now. You always have been some kinda Nascar driver just like Gus said!!!

 

Oh I almost forgot ... he also told me how he got the big cut on his face that weekend. Not sure why you smacked him in the face with a boat oar ... he didn't say but evidently you all got over it.

hey zachary 0<3 there are so many times where to start?? i've been writing on your facebook n myspace but your mom reminded me to write on here because then someday she can print it all out and keep a scrap book! kewl idea i thought! the reason she brought it up was because i was talkin to her at the house earlier this week the day it was raining n had been gross out for a few days i remembered how you were the one to teach me the rain dance! me u dustin n pat pow wowed n danced n sang all the way home from the bus stop tryin ti make it stop raining so we could play outside! haha elememtary skewl days lol i know you loved those soo much! all the tree houses we built from pats yard, to dustins, n to the woods in the back to be more secretive lol also the igloos my first igloos were with you! and when we went sleddin up at the same grave yard you rest at i was never very good n rode on the back of your guys's sled! well randy  n some peeps are bitchin at me to get off the computer n start a game of beer pong i dont know why i bother i always loose teehee but oh well its all in fun! Love you and miss you forever! <3 ;D Lynzy more later

Just wanted to tell you again how much I love and miss you. Last Friday was a rough day for me as you know. I went to the cemetary on my lunch hour again and saw that your stone is up there. It looks good, better than what I imagined. It made me cry but I'm glad its there for everyone to see. Then I came home and met the vet and we put Diojie out of his misery and I'm sure he's running around up there in heaven doing all the dog stuff he couldn't do here anymore. Pain free. I know he is with you - I think that's where he wanted to be. Scooby and I are doing all we can to spoil Harley and make him more comfortable since he is now missing you both. You know son... the most important thing to me is that you are never forgotten. I know I will never forget but I didn't know about everyone else. But your friends were here Friday by our side worried about us and the pain we were feeling with putting Diojie to sleep. I only told Briar and a ton of people just show up supporting us. They are really stepping up and keeping us together. Brice even broke his arm trying to play with Harley and make him feel better. The poor kid. They all really do love and miss you.

 

Anyway we got through the weekend ... Today I went to the grocery store and saw a girl that I don't know wearing one of your memorial sweatshirts with your picture on it. Then I ran into 4 more of your friends that I talked to. When I left the store I went to the cemetary to say hi to you real quick and there were two cars full of your friends already up there visiting you in the rain. You made such an impact on people I need to quit worrying.... nobody is ever gonna forget Zachary O. That makes me so proud and happy. I love you son!!!