Soo Today is the first day of a real snow fall here in the valley :) lol It hurts to look outside for some reason today, with the holidays and signs of the seasons changin without you here make everything all to real again... I was thinking about how we used to go sledding up at the very same graveyard you rest at now... me, you, pat, dustin, and chris... i look back and think how cute it was that i always tagged along with you boys and im so glad i had the chance to that with you guys. I remember sledding down the steepest part of that cemetary hill with dustin steering our sled and we went over the road and into the ditch and hit a bunch of trees,
and ofcourse like always you were the first one there to pull me out and make sure i was okay.. Can i have you back yet??? Can I go sleeding with you again?? Ride bikes, dance in the rain,build tree houses, igloos, have snow ball fights, try to learn and skateboard, learn to yo-yo, catch frogs in the stream, go swimming in the water hole?? I Love you zach and still havent figured out how i get through everyday without you here, i havent had any parties at my house because everytime i did after you died we all just looked at eachother like is someone gonna call zach and have him come up?? You were the life of the party, its amazing to see how much of me left with you... Cant wait to be with you again in the SKYYY*
<3 ur gurl Lynzy
Well here it is my first Thanksgiving without you. It sucks. I miss you so much baby. Briar was with us at Kie's, that helped. I know that Kie and I don't feel like we have much to be thankful for at the moment - after losing half our family all at once. Our family gatherings tend to get smaller each year. But I do feel thankful for having you as long as I did. I feel cheated that it wasn't longer, but it could be worse, I may never have had the pleasure of having such a great little boy that turned into the man you were on your way to becoming. I would give anything I have or will ever have just to have you back. I love you son. Please tell Kirstie, grandma and my dads that I love and miss them all. Oh, and by the way please say hi to our friends that are with you and tell Jeremy to quit pushing his mom so hard. His personality is intense just like yours, I know you guys are together. Grandma's probably got you both in regalia, Kirstie too, dancing in the circle waiting for the feast to finish cooking. After all this is a Native American and white man holiday. I wish I was there to join you now but I will be some day soon. Save a spot for me between you and your little sister. I can't wait. I love you all.
Zach....
Your mom and scoob are such wonderful people. They, and Kiesha believe that you are with them all the time, and I know that you are. Keep leaving little things for them to know that you are around.
We all love you and miss you so much. I was wearing your sweatshirt today and someone asked me who the picture was on the front and I started to cry trying to explain who you were.
I hope you have seen the feather tattoo I got for you... it's on my left foot. Just a reminder of you every day.
Love you little bro!
I just have to say that you and Kirstie have really dominated my thoughts lately. I know how much Kirstie has always meant to you. We have had to deal with the pain of losing her for a long time now. Your life changed when Kirstie died. I didnt know until recently that you used to sit at her grave with your friends. Your with her now, she has always had "family" in heaven but now she has her big brother. If there is anything that I am greatful for at this point, is that you are finally together. Take care of her son, until I get there. We will be with you soon enough. Please tell Kirstie that we love her.
