To my brother:
Zach, I hope that you know how much I love you. You were like a child to me. I was there when you refused to be born, I was there for your first day of kindergarten, and the first time someone let you down. It was sometimes hard for us to be close because I always wanted to protect you from the world. I remember the years you spent every weekend and half the summer at my house.. it felt like I never left home as long as you were with me. But we all grow up eventually and it was time to share you with the world. Zach made an impression on everyone he met. From day one he was gonna do things his way. It was this attitude which made him a leader to his friends and a undeniable force to his family. Zach I love you with everything I am. What I wouldn't give to bail you out when you were late on your rent, to watch your kids (and they would be bad), to reminise about our childhoods. But that's me being selfish. You saved your friends. You saved their lives. You liked to tell me someday you were going to move to a big city and become someone big, someone important that people knew.
I hope you know that we may not live in a big city but you are someone big, someone important... that people knew. I'm gonna miss you.
Zach man I miss you so much, you and me have been through hell and back, but that didn't change anything between us, you were like my older brother that I looked up to, and you always had my back if someone messed with me you would make them stop, if someone owed me money you got them to pay me. But no matter what happend you and me were always there for each other. We might have argued alot but thats just because we were so much a like, we both always thought we were right, but to tell you the truth I was the wrong one. I remember you would always come over to my house and eat all my food and you always wanted to be doing something and you would get pissed at me because I was so lazy and never really wanted to do anything.
I wish you were here for when I get my license because I remember you wanted to drive my car because you didnt want me driving, and you thought you were some kind of nascar driver lol. I just can't believe this is actually happening, i thought i was the one going to be gone first not you, you always told me that i needed to quit doing things because i wasnt taking care of my body and you were mister macho man, that could pick up a car lol.
Well i dont want to keep you busy i know your probably doing great things up in the heaven and you always thought i talked to much lol.
I LOVE YOU MAN!!!! you were like a brother to me, if i ever need your help ill holla at you man, Love you zach
- your bro Gus
Zachary, You haven't heard my voice for 15 years. I am so very sorry for that. You have to know now that there has never been one hour of any day since February of '94 that I haven't thought of you. Since March 9, 1990 for that matter. I was there while your mother slept as you were taken from her womb. That was the proudest day of my life. Your mother was upset with me the day I took you home too, we only had a Chevy S-10, we all couldn't ride home together, your mother rode home with some friends, there was tornados that day you rode home with me and we stopped for a pizza.
So now I hope I can forgive myself for not... Please Zachary forgive me. I will never, ever forget you. I love you always. I only wish I could tell you.
wow. where do i even start. when i first met you, it was through kelley and alysha klemme. i knew you were best friends with kelley, dobbs, steven, and briar. and to be honest, i never thought i would like you more than just a friend. but boy was i wrong. it was my freshman year, and your sophmore year when you asked me out, on christmas :) i remember it was through a text, "i know this isn't the best way to do it, but will you be my girlfriend?" haha, but i thought it was so cute. you were such an amazing boyfriend. we talked on the phone for hours every single night. i really fell head over heels for you. this was when you were in wrestling, you know, when you were a good boy haha. we dated for almost a year but then unfortunetly we broke up. but of course, that summer, summer 06, the best summer of my life, we hungout every single day. mainly at bre and briar's. you, me, bre, briar, jordan, and josh. that was our gang. we were all inseperable, doing everything together. after the summer we all slowly drifted a part, although we did keep in touch with phone calls every now and then, talking on myspace, or even kickin every once in a while. it's been a couple years now and i'm so glad we've stayed such good friends. you were my first love, and everyone knows that i have never gotten over you. i honestly have always told myself that one day me and you would be together again. and if we wouldn't, i just wanted you to be happy. so i can only hope that you are the happiest you have ever been up there. i know how much your sister and grandparents meant to you, and i know that you are happily with them now. as much as i miss seeing you, hugging you and even kissing you, i know that you're still here with me. i'm wearing the necklace you got me for valentine's day, and i plan to wear it for a very long time, bc i like to have a part of you with me. my last memory with you was not that long ago. you gave me a hug, and a kiss goodbye, and i'm so thankful for that. i really still can't believe it, even after this website, the sweatshirts we made, and even talking to your mom. i'm just waiting for your phone call, or your message on myspace. it's crazy. but i know that one day i will be up there with you, and ima holla at ur boi :) so i please just ask you to watch over all of us, guide us through this mess we call life. i know you'll take good care of us, especially your family. i love you so much zachary o sullivan, may you rest in peace and be in a better place.
ps. i'm sorry i wrote close to a novel, i know you're probably making fun of me haha. i love youuu.
love always and forever,
kaitlin nicole johnson.
~Zach~
Hey buddy First i wanna tell you how much i love you and how much im gonna miss you. This was the last thing i expected and the last thing i wanted to happen. The last time i saw you was at miller time and i feel bad cause i didnt say hi to you or anything but what makes me happy is u did say hi to me and gave me a hug. I wasnt expecting that to be our last hug but now i know it was i relized it was the best hug i have ever gotten. Hey do you remember my 17th birthday i had my blue crown and right when you got there you stole it and wore it for the rest of the night,lol? Well I got it still and a picture of you waering it and guess what im gonna be putting it with you in your casket so you will always remember the fun we had that night. So today is the first day i went to your house and i thought it was gonna be hard, it was at first but now i feel comforted i feel like your here with us. I could go on and on but im gonna leave room for other people so i just wanted to let you no one more time how much i love you and that you will always be in my heart.
<3Erica
